C, aka the sweetest human on this planet. He has really nice blue eyes. But unfortunately...that's all I found attractive about him. Oof. Harsh. I know. I like to think I'm more into someone's personality than their looks, but I also need to be attracted to someone to want to date them and not just be their friend.
We met to play board games. (I'm beginning to see a pattern in my own dating habits...) We had a beer and chatted while I crushed him in a card game. (He later beat me in a board game, but we won't talk about that.) I could tell he was really into me which made it easy to be flirtatious. You know when a guy looks at you and you're just like, "Wow, I've got this," and you just suddenly have all of the confidence in the world? Well that was me with C. It was a fun time. We texted sporadically later, but then I finally texted to tell him I "didn't think it'd work out." And just to prove what a sweety he is...he didn't even ask why! He didn't need any closure. Sometimes I feel like such an asshole turning down guys. To a certain extent, I feel like they're doing me a favor by going out with me because I had cancer and don't feel totally me. But then when I later turn them down, they must feel so terrible because they can't even get the "cancer girl" to go out with them. Oof. The dating world it a rough place, my friends.
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